I can't see what's real about you.

~

I deleted about...
92% of my posts.

Simply because I do not want to be tempted to read about what I had.

I need to stop slacking and focus.
I know I have the talent.
I can't let him take my mind because of what
we had..., nor the fact he's one step ahead of me.

I hear YG is holding auditions again?
Junes contacted me, I know they're legit but...
probably a good way to start out but not what I want.
However their contracts are kind of,...
zzz.
I should not even bother anymore.
I'm old.
lol.
I sent some shit to Inagawa just now.
Didn't even look into them, but heard some positive things.

whatever.

Anyone heard about DA??
They contacted me but I can't find a website, ...
the header just leaves office adress and phone number.

~

+

This never will be all right with me,...
No, you didn't even give me a chance to say good-bye.
You always sang to me.
I guess now you sing to the masses.
No one will every see the real you again.
The friendships you will make will be nothing but
f a k e.
Truth is gone,
 fuck, what's the point in writing about you anyway.

~

 I was so naive, that's what I get for assuming certain things exist,....
Wonder how could I have ignored so many signs.
Betrayed me for years, but now I know.
You were never what you seemed to be.
So, if I loved someone who doesn't exist,
...
how can it be so hard to forget?
So, if your future holds so great things for you,...
what happened to us sharing?
I dated singers before, you know I'm not in it for money.
So what else was wrong?
Just a week ago you said nothing could be better.
For years I was afraid, for this day to come,
and you assured me that forever exists.
Yet another lie proven.
Forever is just a word to comfort people.
Don't think about telling me things will work out for me.
They might become better, but it's never going to be the same.
I'm sorry it was never easy, and I apologize for wasting your time.

hm, so I have been gone long time, and things didn't change.
didn't expect them to either.
I guess you could say things between me and him were,....
alright.
As alright as things could be right now.
Last night we flipped.
Both of us did wrong, but I'm the one to take the blame.
It is always been like this and yet I don't get used to it.
o(´^｀)o,...--
really sorry,....

I don't think he has his life under control very much...
But he never realises that.



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